4.03.2012

Baby Stuff

This picture is from a few weeks ago on the day of our first ultrasound. I was 20 weeks in this picture and I'm afraid I just haven't been very diligent in taking many bump pictures!
We found out that we're having a baby boy and we're naming him .... oh you'll just have to wait and find out.

We're very much praising the Lord over a good looking ultrasound, feeling the baby kicking (doing karate?!), and for me feeling good too. It feels so good to be over half way through these 9 months.

I do want to talk about something that isn't easy for me to talk about, but at the same time I feel like the Lord has laid it on my heart to share what He has so mercifully shared with me. 

Caleb and I have been married for 2 years now and in that amount of time we've suffered through 4 miscarriages. One at 12 1/2 weeks and the others at only about 5 weeks. So you can see where me being 22 weeks this week is very exciting and such a blessing to me.  I don't really want to talk about the pain and heartache of loosing all those babies, but I'm sure you can imagine it was very heartbreaking. I do however want to talk about how I've carried this baby so very far compared to the others. 

After I miscarried the baby before the one currently in my tummy (the one kicking up a storm right now yall!), last October I felt at such a loss to understand why this was happening to me - not wondering why the Lord chose to take the babies, since I believe in His sovereignty and that in His wisdom He took them home, but I mean I was wondering why my body was rejecting this little ones so very early in the pregnancy.

Caleb had always offered for me to go to a specialist and see if they could help me, but for some reason I just didn't want to. I promised Caleb that if this did happen one more time that I would go to a doctor, but until then I wanted to see if there was something that I could do to prevent loosing another one.

I sort of just started to Google reasons for multiple miscarriage and most stuff just said that Caleb and I probably had incompatible chromosomes or something scientific sounding like that. Then the Lord directed me to a website where dozens (hundreds maybe) of women were going through the same situation I was. Many of them were suggesting that perhaps the reason for not carrying was a low progesterone level in the mom's body. I wasn't at all familiar with this thought and so I started to google that specifically and I found MANY success stories of ladies who had lost many babies and then went on to have healthy babies. 

And all I had to do was apply an all natural progesterone cream each day? That sounded way too easy and way too inexpensive to fix my problem, right? That's what I was thinking anyways. BUT I went ahead and ordered a bottle of a natural progesterone cream that same day and started using it that very week that I'd miscarried back in October.  

Well...then I found out in late November / early December that I was expecting again. I wasn't very hopeful and the only earthly hope I had was in the cream I'd been using daily since the last miscarriage. Every day seemed like a miracle to Caleb and me and we went through each day very prayerfully. I just kept on using the cream each day and so far everything has been progressing perfectly!

I didn't even bother setting up any appointments with my midwife until I was 12 weeks along. At our 12 week appointment we got to hear his heartbeat for the first time AND it was a first time out of all the babies. That was very comforting and exciting. Then at 20 weeks we had our first ultrasound with this baby and enjoyed seeing what he looks like and watching him move around.

So...while I wasn't ever tested to see if I had low progesterone levels to begin with, I do believe with all my heart that having low levels is why I was miscarrying. And while I don't know every woman in the world's reason for having a miscarriage (I'm sure there are many reasons), I do know that I would at least strongly recommend that she get her progesterone levels tested.

Anyways, I'm just so grateful to God for leading me to that website that day and for giving me such a simple solution to a very heartbreaking problem. I know I'm only 22 weeks this week, but every day that goes by gives me greater and greater hope that I really am going to meet this baby :)